"Haowa Na-haowar Brittanto"-- Bengali memoir by Mihir Sengupta

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cc BSfA @S@U @S S | c J rAH ~ ~S@ Tq, mofS ~^US @U @ @ew TSgc^ | mofS cf@U  j@c @ew@ gv AaS | j cF AAS c J B^ BS sv TAxv@ AaUS, BSfA OS  AA@gw j@ gwR AaUS S | J TS mofS ~^US T@ Acccf c ^cf @s@U jce w^fAB ~Sp ^ ToFT cFAw ~LFw s ~rc B^ ASAaU,  gc J ~BfcS ~ha^ AaUS | cU @f q ~ha^ J cf B^ ~T ToFR Zc @T An @AS | Ac ~T c AaUS T @TFASmv Trf | l@UfS ~S@ gU@ @TFASmv T AASR AaUS empA@ xv TSK | jq @TFASmv gU@ S S, j@T @ ~AT cUAa S cv c J @SAS Av pHTkU m ewiS @B Zc @Tq MJa S cU ~T TS  | oH  @ mS Oq SpL @ c R @Bq J cAr ZAa | cFv ~AmL ~BR prFTS | jv Av cq cISR cv, A@ j @cUT R fW TQ ~^:ewT Q |

empA@ xv jce ALL@ @T@ ToF sJ W @S, J AS:^ j@ oS Aco gw @S | A@ c AcA@ cF jce jq ~UZF  @S AcrK A@ Sq |  s-q @,  ~SH @ ~T cf gq ~Ao@erq @TFASmv Av@q TS @T | c -R  empA@ xv | gU@ s, j cq sq @f @ ?

Av j@v AS OUTS XoA | e  ToF ~kH, nAv AcOFA @c S, @ T@cfR  TS @S S | o Z ~ cI @ s nAv eroS @ WvS R AAmA @ Av ArQ wH @a @fS | c j@ AS:er cUc s Av ew @ ~S@ A@aq ArZAa jce ~AgR @T AS |

j@T AcA@ jce TAB@ Acs, Prrc P@r  @pA@ ASc^ T A @H ToFAc BfcS sS Wv AAC coF q A^@ BS ToF Aw AaUT | A@  ToFAc gU@f kKH  AaUq |  @H q BfcS  j@L, @p AcO A c AS | c kcc @@UfS ~cQf gC A^ TB @ T @ | TBv c Acv gC UR @Svq iF@v @T fQH AaU S |  BSF TS cr j@v AS co AaU | A^@ BS  ATrAa ~O j@v @Onf OvS BSF   j@L  Aa S,  j@ OT TSA@ X^, AS ~ r T wa | avU@ gU@ cOAO vSS ~ @f |

j@v @ ~T UZ c c W ~a | v jq gU@ - avU@ en^ cFv | ~AT gU@ Sq — j@T j@v F A Rv sS ~T AcrK O Ac JA wa | ~U ~T c  Ri ASU s Os ~AT Aa, AcA@ c TAB@ ~Ago  grAH  S | A@ j@v T ~T jq AS jce oH cw OsvR j@v ~e@ JA wU sS | vR s j@oS ToFAc Ug gAT  ,  @v ZU Sq | jq gAT cfBv co ABSw gc ToFAc rAH  mgAc@ gcq @ | jq s ~e@v ~T ToF ja v c T@f rAHLLv Ai@gc A@ AS cUq |

wTfH BfcS s  TUTr, ~S S OUa  rAH ToF jTS @f A@a Aa, s AgA  rAHq ASB ~cmS ASEO @ SR s ?  @Hq j@L WvAS | ~O gU@ cww wTF A^ TB, RZS @fq c ZS AaU ? cOq r , s  ATrT, ~^A@gc  mgAc@ rXo wH @ ~w BSF | j BSF j@v Ag^ ArQ @ | v ZS j@cq UgF AaUS | q ArQv Av emr j ~S@vq Ug AaU | A@ ZS ~c TUTr cmc Qnv @ gU@ @A ArAQ wA ~R ToF OU wAa | ~l Av @Ac gK cU wU, cU , LL ~ w sS j@@ T j@@ oS U@OA OUa, ss TUc^S AS |

S@rUcA WvS WvU,  ~TSF ASWK TS AaU m j@v R wa | ~AAU Av erc a, e A@ TSsw wU | wTcAU gc fc T@ T |  R TB, c AcA@ OMA m-AcAo ~^ Sq | AcQg @s@HR ~bU | e m\-~oFf BS LL TSwf cFZF s ~@p cq  ~ AcAOn @f ? gUT^, c ~c, mgAc@ ~mgAc@ AcOco S @U, , TS Uf c wf @ s cUcS, -q ASK | A@ ~U W TKU | TSK @, TSK BSF @B @, TSK @a @ ArQ SR c R, j Tmq o c@AS ~ cp AcK, w o ~m-cFc,  jce ^ | ^ jce AcdXo ^ | Prrc P@r @U @ s m, gUc, @dH, fA, PTnf c cl UNo TkUFco ~Sgc, j sS  c A@a@q IJAv k @ | @H R cvq cB TB | U TSK A rXoco @ ? @f gcq c R sc ? @TFASmv rXoco @f il wBc ? jq T j@v WvS @ TS  | UMA q ~SF j@v ~A WvS | ZS TB Acc   TH b j R ~T U ZAha | S c A@aq ~T @a AFBF | jTS @f cf^SR | ~O, cf^ewf Sc S — j@T j@v A A@aq cB Z AS | s @, q ~AAv cf^B^f UQF BU | oS wA@ AOn ATn | e S scS jv Accf pb A@aq TS ~S Aa S | ~O cFv ZS  cQ|Os US T | BU sw AUq cg, swg R cF jce @TwH @rFq AAccf ~ZF c | A cf^S Bf US | J OqR co AOn ATn | @H, ~T o  cf^ewf ASS, ~T AS AOn ATn c cc Acr qFA wR cf^ewf | e wUT | wUT, A@  j@BS @T cI cI wUS | jq OwU TBAv@ sZS ~TkU AcS @ TU ewT J SZ OUa, AcrK @ ArQ@r TR sZS ASB AOS empA@ Acc AOUS @aS, ZS jqc gccf, AAnrfU wS cBS BU T @vS s @f O AcB TSgc, @TAv  S cFZF @S @a TS @ wU | ~AT  sA AcdXo j@v @R cU  @UT S | @H v Av UqS AcAo | A BU rK S R s^ @TAv @ ~AT mS Fw @R AAS | vq SAaUT jce sT, cr A@a@U o ~T jq AcB TSA@ McUF BSF TUAO AaUT |

jq WvSAv  T B WvS j@Av | AO^ Bw jq X^ ~T TSA@ AmA@ j@c Aa^Ag^ @ AAhaU ZS | j@v T jTSR TS AhaU s Acc  @T cpA sS j@v TMAU@ Aco ~a | R ~AT Acc @ sqAS | oTn s TS @ s  Acc @B @a, ~AT  Zcq oHgc sF @ O @T |  ToF, j rUv c ~r Rvq oS | ~AT BSTR S,  @f oS @B @ | c ~Ar ASB ToF LL ~UOS,  c@ i, AcAg^ jU@ eWAv ~F@S AS SSS @c cU | ~T jce cA ~SF j@Tn @B AaU  ~^ R cmS cFcm @ | ZS ~T j@ Bw cF@ Ac AUS OUa | TqS v@ vS vS OAS OU,  T@cA @S g | AS @T @ @ ~T @ ~Y TSF BT@ qFA sc T OA @ AS s | ZUR A@a cU T S | a, R AAccf TSA@ K   | ZS j@v @ W ToF AS @va |  c, ~TF A cB mgc BSFq TS a s j@T wa Accf co AcrAcc ~ @R Z sAS | sAR jZS j@T@ S@rU^f AS ~UOS q jqc TSF ZJAvSAv ~Ag @ cUAa, A@ sZS ~AAU Av erc AaUT jce Av jq gw cFAv WvAS, ZSR jBf ~Ag s WvAS jTS S | c cFAw ~Xo BSF Av@ f @ OU S |

jq ~AgU jTS A@a cU @ S | A cUAa jBSF s, oH TSK Av @Tf AcK cr j@v c gTco jZS ~a | jq cov ~S@ @U o  a | TSK j@ AvF c T@ ~fT Fw mf@, r jce TSK r c@T ewT JS SAB Za | TB ~SF Qn sc Ks mgc TSK Z, @TFASmv ~OH   @ZSq @TF TS @ S | jv co gf OAnFUQH |  jv wH @  S s @TFASmvR Te TSK | r ~cQf ~O ~OH @R ~r @  | @H  jrq ^S, jZS@ K H ASq R ASTH | mw @ cAr Ac  ~AS @ | FJ,  @S AcOFA WvU, TSK AOl  OZ ~CU A AZ R | :Z AcK cmc  Wv S | WvUR @TFASmvUg ~OH  TkUFHR S | j@U ATA U@ ~aS, s J @TFASmv Acof gk ~r c ASB @TFASmv AcXK BSFR ~S@ Tq AU@ U Ac O @S | ZS TSK oH K nAvU s^ @s cFZF A @S sA c @S @TFASmv STof ToF Z s, sS @TFASmv KA rS cq |

 j@v A@ | A@ ~T cFAw s ~Ag @ qAkc cUAa, U @TFASmvUg  Sq, jTS@f oH TScH TpXoR S | qc ~OH @ TA Ug @ BSFq  jq Tc ~r Sc O @AaUT | A@ ZSR sA cFA@ mA^l cF@ @ U TSK s @ ? Xo ZJBq c @fgc @ ?

cFv c^ kH TTA WvU @@ AS AUr jce BU B c @ | A@ecA^ S@ @T ~O ~OH, e@fH, SeT qFA Z ~rc rAv@q ~Acr @ nT U | A@ jc ~SF AcK @ | ASB @v @f ? ASB @ ~S@ jce R A@a Tl ec S | j@v Ac @q A, ~  cF ASB @a ~AT Zcq Ay, S @S SfO c o^cAB ToF @ZS A@AS | gU  ASEOq OUAa, A@  AaS @S cFAw UgUg rF AaU S | Av F c T@ BSF @S @B @U,  AcAST A, sr, ~, re qFA Fr s TS @ZSq BwAS, j Ac B q @ A | jq TSA@v ~S@ ToFq AaU AT@ gc | nTr @ @ QT T rFcB a, @ c ASA rF ASq Av ja jce j@T, @S S @S gc, avc QT @^ ASB A @a |

~AT Av ~r rAT@ @pK@  j@L S UR,  @a@Aa TSK  OAaUT, TSA@ gc | A@ ~T TS AaU j@v j@PAZ@ oH ~cXo | rAT@, @pK@ c ~SFSF TSA R ASfA TSK ToFR s cFA TSK LL rAHm cq Aw ~Lm^f   | R s TB c@T KnAvs , j@T oHq ~T AaU S | ~rc j@v ~Uf@ cZ OA  ~cmS ASH @ O @T, U cFv ~S@vq S AH ZJBq scA AaU | ~ ToF c hOAc TSK Tnq Z jce AFBF j@T j@v ~S oH KH @T cU, cFc A@ A gfKH ~-TAB@  AaUT | ~crF jv o s ~Tq j@Tn nAv AaU, j@ cU sc S | ~T ALL@ ArQ@ j cF  AaU | c cA@ AccOS @ cU A, ~AT @STq jq  BSF s A@ AaUT S | s To, cAXo, TSS, ASTScA, ArT, TAG qFA @U jq rF TSK ToF @B @ s,  @Svq ~T ToF AaUS | \v, sv ~F^ WpHF jce SFBS@ nAv, ~l ~U TUOS, ~fS TmAS q @ AaU cAo@ | jTS @f jZS s AUZ c SSS ~UOS @ O @Aa i@ ZSR jq Kq @r ~Ao@ Z cS | ~L-TUOS @ ~L A @vq cAr |

ja ~ j@v ABASR ~T ToF jq T @  j@v mf mgc AH AhaU | PA@ QT cq Aw TmSUg ~OH, s @ WpHF j@BS cFATSK ~OH ~ A@aq  S | j BSF ~crFq SS oS ASsS jce ~S ~S@ Tq ~T @U Bva, A@  BSF @@q SFsF ~AT f @ A S | cFcA@ ~O ~OH ~S@ cFATSK q ~AT ~SF ~OH AU Aa cv, c  BSF   q ~SR o Aa | ~S@ Qnq AQ @a ASB @q Aw QT AgQ @Aa |

~T BfcS jq cv Zcq ~eU | ~S@ Tq jq ~eU ~OH @s@H ~AT ASB ToF ~S^S @ O @Aa | sv@ cI Aa,  U PrrccAo W cq  c @a ~rXo jce ~S | j BSF ~T ToF B^ ASa j@ ~SF ~cdXo ~AgTS | cf @U sZS A@a A@a Ts, gUc, rXo c m @r @R ZAa,  Acr c AS AAS | vR co ~T OAAn@ j@v nAv | cFv  j@v TSA@ w | A@ jZS TS , cFv cvq A@ q ? ~AT s cI A s BfcS  c Qnq ~AT o cFcYq Aa |  ToFR s F Sq, @ cU A S |

jv o BPSA@ Qnq S, AcA@, TAB@ jce ~A AcK@, c Qnq | j H ~S@q R s | A@  gU cIcAI cI o cq sc | a cFv ~T dAOR S | ce jq gU, cK ASBq jq F Am @ | e @qc @ gv cI ? cq gc s  o cFcY a ~Tq TS |

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BU @ ASB rAHw ~cmS j@AS jTS Ugc cIUT s  @ ~ @SAS ASB@ Accf c ASS oH TSK f cU gc T TSA@ FR Am  AAS | @T AO^ @ wUR c g cU TS  ASB@ | WvSv oH | ~BR gAc @ Q WvSR TSK F rS Wv  |

ZS UUcB xvU U@-~ ~Aa | j@@v U JAOrBS @ JO ATrAU @A | @ @, @ O, @ @vT ~c @c AcU a@f qmU Tmv | cA@ @@BS ~T Accf @Tof | cq AcOofS cA^,  @H j@B | jZS cFcmSv @pq TFcf | ~U ~ q@FU | A@  o ~qS OZ | j ToF T q@FUR j@BS @ | v ZS, c w U,  j@BS  OT @ @U OfS @pcr,  q@FAUAv j@v Ag^ T  | jv ~SF wf AnATSU QnR F | ZS Amv v@ |

BUZS c U@-~  T j@v AcrK @H AcA Awv cr ASAKXo AaU | S, smoking is injurious to health ST@ SF@ c@ @ c@FAv ZSR Xgc WvAS c @vR @rF c cAU@  okTS r v@ BATS os @  AS | j  b ~w @ | ZS r Sf^S oST^f BdA ~cm BA @, w ~Sw c Acof U R SwA@@ ~SrS ArQ AAhaUS | @H ~SrSA r@ TS cS F, jq ArQ irU Ac r cl BUZSAU AcSAcO cA^  AOmf ~c AH AaU ~SrfUS ArQ c BSF | ~B@ l, ASQ jce  BA @SRU wHA^@ ~wT@ AcO Acgw ZS oST^f K @ T, J Pci@ZS  v SFB S | q, AS AcOofS cA^ j@T BU gC cA ~ i@A @AaU | @U@  AEOTc  c BUZS Uq jq O  | ~AU AA^ BU, BU @U @AUS jce r iJq R @H jZS OAv co j@v c oS AaU | @f   ToF ~mrm AwAaU TF@ BS Sq | c me g sc  wUw\ SAaUT s TvTv AcA ToF cT TrU O AaU SA@ | g jce cq swl rm ~nTH T cTU SA@  TrU Aq PA AaU | cFv @r  U, g okTS ASAKXo WKH @  | ~crF  mQ @S ~qS cUcl AS | Slq AUAr @ Ac w-BA |

A@ AcA AwvZ AScp Z Acof BPSA@ Tr@ mNo Z T B AaU S, jZS Sq | ~U Acof @S A@a@q B @ mNo @ s S c | j  j@v TB WvS cUAa | ~T@ ABc @ BSF s ~AAv AaUS, mrU cF AUr UR TSKAv A@ AaUS | AUr A@  S jTS @S AST Sq, c  Tv cFv  ~AcrF, AcrK @ mrU cF | s@, gU@ okTS ~gF AaU cU | j@AS ABc T AS j@v  j@v Awv ZhaS ~ r @aS | AS AAS cI AwAaUS s ~T@ w @S Ug Sq | ~AT AS^q bJ Bf | e J cFc A@v oSF AhaU | AS ~AT cUUT, ~S lfS @ ~S@ XoA ~a BAS, A@ jv @f oS ~FO Trq ? AAS cUUS, A@ ~AT  ~S  @S ~FO lfS @AAS, @S j@ cUaS ? cUUT, ~AT Trq j@BS J Awv-Z, U ToF okTS ASKo cU  BA @ AaS, ~ jZS ~AS ~T T j@BS oJ-A TS j@v  j@v Awv Z OUaS | jv @f OT j@v ~FO STS S ? gU@ J F@vv ~T A@ cA A Zc UAB  cUUS, ~crFq ~FO, sq cUaS ~AS | A@ BSS , AUr Awv ~SF @a @ Z, ZR S @@ | cU j@v cU ~F @US jce v ~M AUr Ug AaU S | A@ ~U w\v Ag^ | v ~q A@ AaU S @S  @q |

U@-~ O c @vT Bf SfO U AUr, Qf ABwA m | U okTS ASAKXo UR  @ @MrU @ AcA Awv cq @ ~AS Z | ~TR j@ ~o vS gw A | Sr ABAS jJv S | j@BS FJ@Av T O cA^ AaU, STv TS ~a, JO |   @Sq R ~er r cv @cO-AcO AaU | @ ZT  wU ToF j@v @Ai A ZJAO ZJAO  sS @f Z | ZR  Wxv  Wxv gT T c @ | ~T  j@BS AcAr cR @f @H sS cA^ AaU | R ZT JO @Ai OKa | ~T j@v AcA @ oU, @ r cBS AW c f @@ T Frf  A@, sA j@v vS ~^ q | ~ JO, c,  Rc @f cm Z s gT T @ ? AB @ JO cUU, @@S, ~AT — Rc T cIc S | RU c JO ABAS |

jTBA^ AA | AEOTc AeS ZS rc^ M AXor J Tr rT j@xv  U @aS | @^ Trqq f TAUU Sd SAS, BxvU-@U BRUU nf, jAr TAks | ZS jq ~B@, ~l B ~v S U Acof wH^Tf US Snf jce  f  cq mWAK FAm jq ~B@q T |  rT ~S cl l@UfS AcofQ gmfgk  | wHA^@ ~Ao@ Q, TScAo@ Q, Ar\f, AAF@, @Ac  cF@ rfU cAXoBfAc ~Ao@ Q cTS ~Aggc@ ~S@q AS AaUS, c c r^  AaUS | cq rfU jce ~Sw |

c  wU S @ cU Aw c UwT a    | cU OqAaUT qT ASB rAHw ~cmS @ | A@ rAHOAnvq jTS s ZSR AcXo ~LTUOSv @ Aa S | AS^q oS ha | rK s^ ~ATR  j@q I cJr, ToFAcq,  @S Ac @ c S @ | c S ?

JO@ cUUT @@v AcA ~AS RS T U@ A | JO cUU,  R, j@@AS c | A@  @ ? R @fgc  Bw @ BSUT | s @A  Z @ ~,  @a @ S | O @ T rf wS mS UA@ Z, c s A TU ~S   ~SF@T cFcm @ S |

TI mf j@AS Z @ jU, J @a @ Av v@ ASUT | SvAv j@Av w\U A@ TZ j@ @H UA@ g jUT | JO cUU, KUv AcA c j | ZS AcA cAU AaU a ~S | cAU AcA @ OANcrv | ZS v@ KUv Tn ? A@ Sr c cUq | cA@ v mA | q q | AS  PSrgB  ~T @T j@@BS wv wv AcA oA A@ BS ! A@ ~U WvSv jq Tq WvU jce ~AT @p F rS @UT | Uv j@vq Tv w wv | OA@ JO Tv U | e ~U U@ wfA oJ @AU A@  cU oJ ~@ TS w A cAhaU | U@-~ Axv BS @ xvof AUr @TOf w ZU b@ S b@ ~AT ~c@  ZUT U JAOrBS cA^ A v gw  wU | ~BPSA@ @Aq cAr AaU | AcAU ~ Ac r ~wq TA ASAc U AaU | A@  T @ q TUAS | Tv ZU O, @vT U@ | v gw j@A@ ~T T @A Accf @A jce ~SFA@ avU@ O, @vT qFA U | cA^ ToF U jq AcrKH cFc SAaUT j@BS ~SZ@ ALL@S TZq  T | ~l jZSR q rAHg — Accf gU@ jce ~SF avU@ — U |

 ASK U R@T cfgl T ZU ~T K | ~O ~EOs ! jBSF ~T ToF @ TSF :Z @r s^ @UT S  @a | R, cFv sS jTSq R @, gcq cFv TS ASU | sS ~T @a  @S MBSF FrR Sq | , ~T ~Sc BSwH TA ASfS @ ! @ @@ T @ ! ~^ gU@ s @ S, v AS ~LAS BU TT TT ~Sgc @AaUT | TS TS mf@ @AaUT, ~T Ok^T g jce Acocf |

jq WvS  @ TB-Acc J@ ~RB jce TScTA c SF A c c cAU hOH @ TS AS | c S ~gFcr  O @ @ZS @ZS TZ @ cA wa, wmgcvR A sAS, c ~^ cIAa, ASB Xo S  j@B ~ gATq ST^ jce ~T T @A ArAQ gU@ ~ sq q, Xo TSK Sq | sAS q oS AAXo S , AS TScTA BSF @B @ ~Ao@ ~T Sq |

( rK )

(c 45, jAU, 2010)

jq UZ ~S @TS UwU ?