"Ashray" -- A story in Bengali by Haris Mahamud- Parabaas Issue 31

rT TS-j @Ac : jZSR ASr ASq

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A TT

Bv ~AT @U @ ZU AZ | g ks RiS aJc ~w J@@ @ | S@U wa U c gkT JO S Iv | wU UU wqv RUS o O cS ST |  avv @, @i TI Zv Zv rN  | wqAv wU AO @ | @@ @ , o -q BS, ~ ~AT BAS | A@ wqAv s@ @,  ~ S ~B @U | ~AT c ~r ~r Bv ZU AZ | jq cA ~T S, jq W ~T S, jq waU, jq UU wq, @ ~T S | c c@ Ag ~AcT @ii@ T i@ i@ @ cU, s BSF jq wqAv ~Q ~a  ~T ~F^ ~S,  ~ @ S,  @cUq ~T | j@^ ~T |

~AT AZ  U TwaS T RiS UvAv Z OU @T @JiU wa ArT TO A Acmp a R A@ | A@ TAv ~ S | UU wqAv ~S@ @ | Bw Ri pAcf @UU  @ ~ Zc @v TS  S, c ~AT  @^ S q |  RUS cS ~T YAv@ ~J@ o | A@ TAv ~ S | ~T  An ~Q cF  s | jZS ~T c@ UU @@ @ S @c ? ~AT BAS S, @ BS S |

ZU UU wqAv@ wU Z cA@ wd AS R OU s | cA r d aTB  | q  Sf, Sf  o AQH  ~cAo AcrU R | UU wqAv @^ rS s S | o ~AT @ Wv c  @^ S A@ |

w@U jq T  @ Wv jAaU wq S  | q T ~AT  OZ OZ ZAaUT |  OZ Ag wS j@ rA^T pAcf Bw AaU, ~ q pAcf ~AT mT WcA ZAaUT | ZS ~r r @ AaU S |
~AT cUUT, T ST A@ ?
 Zc UB@ @i cUU, dAcS |

  AaU cB ~ SfU @O OA | S AaU wb cB kA rA |  @S B AaU S | @v OJ T   Jv OU wU cA Ag | ~T Y TWcH j@ a U  OU wU |  A@ BSU ~T A@ U ? ~T B iU, OZ @ WT oR U |   ~AT WT UT S | ~Q @ @UT @ZS @U c, ~  ~c, wq S @c, ~ @Wv ~c | wq S T ~AT Zc @ |  NB wUf ~U wqAv RUS  Zc | TAv AU O oc q Jv TIZS | ~ RUS @ o ST ~c cpA T |  A@ BS j@ B OZ @f ~of Acm ~ ~@U AS Z O @ ?  ~B ~ S | @ Wv  ~ S | @S U, @S rfUAv R ?

jq cA ~AT T cAr @Av Aq | r sXo OUa | sS  AS sXo OUa | @cU jq ASIT wTAv @S AU ~RB Sq | PSF vU Sq | sXo AS gc ~T qha  S | jq wT Ag rA^ Bw ~a dHf  TZ Tf T | ~AT r gS@ ^ cfgl O Z AU jAa | ~ jq wT j ~AT rA^ Z Aa | jZS Bw ~a Sf T rA^, a ASAc waU rA^, dAcS OZTZ Bw ~a ~ rA^ | jq rA^ c@ AS cJO @ Oq ~AT |

jq cA @  ~T AO  SM@, s SM@ ~T@ r @ wT AS jAaU | ~T ZS w^cF BS AaU S | o BS AaU ~T@ U c | r @ r Ur TI ~AT AT@ A AU | ZS ASB H cJO ~AT ~ ~S@ TSK  r @ U A@ | ~ U Aw ~AT r cq j@Av SM@ O cA | ~AT @J A@, AcA Ar T ~AT gC v@ v@  s A@ @^ | qr ca sc@ jgc @J S, A@ ~AT @J A@ | ~T  ~S BU i AO AaU, rn R ~T IJA  AO AaU, ~O ~AT Rc A@aq @AAS | ~AT @ @ TTSK T @JAaUT | ZS @ sS ~T Ai  ZAaUS | AAS AaUS jq cA @ c fS | AASR r @ UAhaUS q SM@ | ~T BSF :Zco U J | AAS cUUS, @J S, AT ~T cA @c | c Ai@  sc | q AS @ ~AT J ~r ~Aa | @ cpA U, @  iU | ~T @ @T UwU | ~AT ~ @JA S | A@ ~B ~T @^ U dAcS@ Z S  |

~AT BAS S @ J T | AAS J Ac cq@ ~T  AO @ SAS | ~AT cq W A@, ZU aU@ AOAS, UAcAc@ ZAa, ~ dAcS J T A@S ~AT BAS S | A@ ~T BS qha U dAcS A@ J T | @S sS qhav@ TS @ AB @A, A@ ~Z a ?  ZS s S ?

dAcS A@ J T ? A@ ~Z J T ? ~AT @   wa a c ~@r A@ @q | ~@r wgf rkSF cp@ R j@ AOU |  A@ A@ ~T ASB@ Zc av TS  | ~AT sS jq Tk j@ ~^@ w ToF c^f  ~Aa

~AT A@c gq A@ @S ~AgcFA S AZ A@ A@ | ~AT sXo Zc AZ S | ~T co Zc Z AO | ~AT TI TI ~Sgc @A s, ~T sXo sR AO AaU | g Aw vASe AS j ~T AO AaU rn R ~nTH @ | ~AT BAS S @S sXo sqAS ~AT | H g ? TpF g ? ~O ~AT  jZS ~Sgc @A dAcS BSF H A ~AT AXo @c S | c ~AT cc R T Ur T ~ jq r @a | ~AT dAcS@ AS gAc | ~AT T  sq Sf A@ A@ | dAcS A@ a ? @c ~c Z c R@ ? A@c gq ~T @Jo  A cUS, A@ gc AT ?
~AT UB  sq | A@ AZ Tmv cR c ~aS j@ r |

c A@ A@ ~ A@a cAU S | Tmv c AB @S, A@ ~ jAaU SA@ ? ~AT A@@ AOAS S q c@ T A@ A@ J A@ |

~T c@ Ag ~@v B ZU s | j@BS TAsXo s cA AaU  cA ~AT ~Aa | j j@ ~EOs ~SgkA | ~T c@ Ag j@Av AZ wS wq @, ~@Av AZ @S sS i@ T @ |

c fS ~T@ c@ BA oS | ~AT ~Sgc @A J c@ ~S@ , ~S@ rA Bw ia | ~T Zc gU Uw |

~T Ac Ai@  s | Ac ~w AS Zc cpA  |  I R cq @ | @  ~S@ @U wa TAv UAv  | @T wa @@Av U g @  s | AS ^F dAcS ~ ~T W |  j FA@Sv BAU  | ~ FA@S TMS ~U  TZv g i ^FTUf T |  OZ Av ~ SO S BA T, cpArK fAW T @cU vUTU @ |

~AT BAS S A@ cU @ ~AgcS @c | j@BS AS TAsXo AT , @ A@ cU @c ~AT BAS S | ~AT @ O jAw Aq |
c |

 O c Tf T T U @ ~T A@ | A@ sA ~B cJO @, ~ sXorK r A J dAcS TS, @f ^ Z BS@ | ~T rf Ar i | ~AT dAcS  o Jv w c sq  TS |
AT A@ ~T@ gUc, dAcS ? ~AT A@ T swF ?

A@ gq@ ~AT @SAS gU c S | c ~S@ ~AT AO@U gUcc | ~AS ~T j@^ ~r | ~S ~r S U ~AT Sf c T sc |

~AT dAcS@ c@ BA oA | j@Av ~co @ T  ATr @ ~T c@ Ag | ~AT BAS S @S  ~T@ j c @ Z | @f jTS ~r ~AT  BSF ? ~T  A@a Sq | U@ j@BS TSK ~AT, ~r  cJO ~Aa  W | I R U @  wa U, ~T Y jZS gc U @ | ~T c@ dAcS JA @J i ~c |
cUS, ~AS @ZSR sXo scS S |
~AT  TZ U ~U@ O A@  OZ Ag |
S, ~AT T@ a @ZSR sXo sc S |

@@AS  Zc ~Sc Acr ~T Ac  s | vv cpA ToF ~AT R dAcS @cU @A m@ |  cpA T wU R WU AS R @ j@ OJ i | A@ ~T AcaS s OJ c ~a,  ~@r Rq OJ O ~S@ cAr ^ | jq ~AS^F^ R Tv rN g ~ | rK  A@ dAcS Uv Zc cF  | @   @  S | ~AT cI A S @S jq cF  | ~AT A@ @ A  cF UWc @ BSF ? TTSK rf ~T @a kH j@ ~OS Bwl | ~T Xw Z dAcS @ ToFR  Ri | A@  OZ @ c v AS O  wU R | c @S ATSA aq  ~T c@ TZ UA@   | ~T BS WAT sq |

Zc Aa PSF s-@S AS ~  | R ~U Zc Z c | cI Aa S A@ @c | J @im gfA S cJo ~a |

~ATR ~J@ Ai | ~c U c ? r @ AU jAa wT | jZS @ sc ? ~AT ~ U Oq S | dAcS@ AS ~AT jZS ~S^@U @ Oq |

AO^ @cS S | ~T jZSq @c | A@ha c S ~T | jq ASAEO  @ @ ~ ~T c@ Ag ~AT ASBq jq T cI A S |

@UcU @ j cU v j A@mSf PSF U@UT @ cJAoa | cq@ AB @a, A@ @ ? @@Av @S ~S oAa | A@c gq@ Zc AAva | U@BS wT a U d @a | ~AT dAcS@ ce@ ASO rq AZ | ZU wd AS R OU s | UAcAc, ~T rf ~ ~AT ce@ ~r ASq | ~T ce@ b@ wU c fS Rv ~w T U@A ~ Z A b@ S |  AAS TAB STB  OU sS | R Aw ZU cc wT A@ A@ @ | wdAUR W ZR U oJha^ wT A@ A@ @ |
PSF TAB @ c fS@ o cA AS ~ | R cc J@ AB @, A@ @ ?
AAS cc cUS R Sq | R OU wa | @ wa ~AT BAS S |

j@Av ~OS ~Xg @^ ~RB ~AT OT@ Ai | A@ AZ ~  ~o ~U BUT SQn T   @a ~T ~ dAcS ^S | jZS cq ~ @S rN Sq | @R @S rJ rJ ~S Sq | ZU j @ AU ~T cA ~A | ~ @U ArAv AOl@ @ | sS wv pAcf@ BAS A O s  ja | A@ c fS Ur Z Tn ~ @ @ RiS |  @^ sS ~@r g cpA ST ~ | dAcS@ W AS ~AT AcaS rq Aq |  Acrf j Ag @ cq | ^F ST | c fS@ ~T S @ A  WS  ~ | ~T Zc @^  @ sZS @c SAT AZ | @ ~ @S AS Z c S | ~AT  TZ R @S j@Av OT Aq | sS ~AT S q AAS ~T@ cUaS, ~T a AT @S AS OU sR S, cc |

W A AZ dAcS WAT wa | ~  r ~  SA@ @U AS SS @ d aS |

jq UZ ~S @TS UwU ?